Wednesday, August 15, 2007

Worry beads

Sometimes I think I need a set of worry beads just to have a focus for my obsessions. Everything is going smoothly with the new house, so of course I am convinced that there is something that I need to be doing, to be more active on, to be obsessed with.

Letting things happen and especially letting other people be in control of any part of my life just doesn't come naturally to me. At this point, I'm just trying to see what God wants me to learn. It's a slow process and it seems that I need many repetitions of my lessons.

We have a signed sales contract on the house. The inspector came yesterday and everything is structually sound. Some minor things that my dh wants to take care of himself. Yeah!

Relocation package came through, too, so I need to pick a mover. Now there will be an opportunity for growth for me. I am very excited about not having to do the packing. I know, however, that when the day comes, I will worry obsessively about whether or not they will do a good job and whether or not my millions of precious items will arrive safely. I keep wanting to pick out things to transport myself and the next thing you know, I've listed most of the contents of the house. What I need to remember is to take care of me, the kids, and the dog. Those earthly possessions are just stuff.

What a contemplative bent for a Wednesday morning.

5 comments:

Angela said...

If you had a set of worry beads, you'd just have something else to try to keep track of during the move.

Just use one of the many sets of mardi gras beads you'll be re-discovering during the move.

deej said...

Maybe I'll just string together those 24 rubber balls that the movers are going to find everywhere.

Angela said...

24......23.....22....21.....

deej said...

Actually I think those things have been secretly multiplying. I keep thinking I have them all corralled in a bag and then I find another one in some odd place.

Angela said...

Did I forget to mention the 2nd batch I secretly dropped off......er, I mean, "did Santa drop another bunch?"